Tonight I was bone weary. Last week I got so tired, being both parents, wading through paper work (have you ever wondered how insurance companies come up with so much paper work for you to fill out when something bad happens to you? I'm really trying not to swear, but this is best defined by the term "s - - t load" in more ways than one), fixing cars, and on and on. As I was saying, last week I got so tired I was nearly physically sick and 'called in' as such so I could actually get a little sleep, which I haven't been doing too well with lately. I did sleep, but I got a half of a bed worth of papers done and actually spent some theraputic time working on my design for our headstone. It's not going to be like everyone else's. 

But, as I was saying, tonight I was bone weary. I woke up at 4:30 and couldn't get back to sleep until nearly time to wake up. This is the first time that has happened since a couple of close friends gave me a blessing. Probably partly because of that I had a vertigo spell in the middle of one of my Math classes. My very understanding principal came and baby-sat my kids so I could go do some things to minimize it (if you work in a school, you really need a principal like ours). 

Then right after school it was a race, getting Caleb to St. George for All State Choir auditions (including meeting with a tuxedo rental place and finding out an inept employee had not got Caleb's ready, so I have to race back over tomorrow...I'm going to Jim's Formal Wear from now on...used to be Mr. Tux?...the one across from Harmons...they are always ready and a lot cheaper), then getting him back to Hurricane for a Shakespeare performance by students of the awesome Mr. Hill...stuffing food in our mouths somewhere along the way, changing clothes, and a few other errands and things. Then, after that was over, Caleb had a science project to do while I cleaned floors and am still doing laundry. Caleb was worn out...and so was I.

Like I said, I was bone weary....tempted to start feeling sorry for myself. 

I had to have a break so I decided to go on a walk about 10 o'clock. It was dark and a little rainy, but the stars and the far-off flashes of lightening rejuvinated me. I even ran a block uphill, which would have killed me a few weeks ago. After stopping at a favorite place to pray in the dark, I came home and looked up a conference talk online to listen to. It was about Mothers, and how their mission is so much like Christ's. I thought of Nani, and how much she did when she was suffering. Furthermore, I read a message on facebook from a friend who, in a way, is going through worse than I am and suffering for her children. It all came home to roost.

I'm bone weary, and may be sick again soon. But I have it pretty good. I'm so thankful that I have such wonderful kids, friends, and influences. It makes all the difference and I choose them.